I Will Never Let You Go Episode 46 Recap
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Mo Ruofei genuinely wished the best for Hua Buqi, expressing his desire for her to accept his assistance. He noted that the one-month deadline was fast approaching, and if she agreed to travel with him, they could reach the capital sooner to find a way to save those in need. Hua Buqi considered this carefully before finally accepting Mo Ruofei's help.
She boarded the Mo family's carriage and asked him to arrange for Xiao Xia to be found in the capital, mentioning that Xiao Xia had been her personal bodyguard in Zhu Manor and her presence would bring her comfort. Mo Ruofei readily agreed, instructing Jiansheng to make a stop at the courier station.
On the journey, Mo Ruofei mused about how much Hua Buqi had changed since he first saw her arrive in the capital, having endured so much in just a few years. Hua Buqi replied that her fate was inescapable, and even if he hadn't brought her, Chen Yu or Master Lin from Yaolin Manor would have. Their journey was interrupted by a group of refugees begging for water.
They explained that their homes had been taken by the eldest grandson of Prince of Cheng, who was intent on reclaiming the throne. Upon hearing this, Hua Buqi realized it was Dongfang Shi. She urged Mo Ruofei to take a detour, explaining that Dongfang Shi was among those pursuing her because the House of Zhu owed him money. His Majesty had used this as an excuse to accuse the Zhu family of collusion, ordering their capture.
Mo Ruofei acknowledged the unexpected complexities of her life and agreed to the detour. Meanwhile, the Emperor was furious, railing at his officials over the loss of more than ten cities to the rebels, lamenting that such a powerful force had been lurking unnoticed within his territory. His officials reported that Dongfang Shi had allied with the Northern Wilderness King, and their combined forces were too strong for local troops. They also discovered that some local officials had been bribed.
The Emperor was further enraged by rumors spreading that his deceased father had usurped the throne by poisoning Prince of Cheng, and that Dongfang Shi, as the Prince of Cheng's offspring, sought to right past wrongs. The Emperor saw Dongfang Shi's alliance with the Northern Wilderness King as a deep dishonor.
He then demanded to know why the warhorses from Feiyun Fortress had not reached the battlefield and why their young master was now serving Dongfang Shi, having even founded the Feiyun Cavalry. Declaring that the head madam of the Mo family was Yun Qingyang's sister, he ordered the immediate confiscation of the Mo family's property, vowing that everyone in Feiyun Fortress would be beheaded once his cities were recovered.
Back at the Mo Manor, Mo Ruofei and Hua Buqi had just returned when soldiers descended upon the residence. Hua Buqi wondered if the Emperor had discovered their return so quickly. Mo Ruofei, though unsure, didn't think the news could have spread that fast. He immediately instructed Jiansheng to take Hua Buqi to a secret chamber while he went to investigate. Chaos erupted in the manor. Mo Bo, a loyal servant, tragically died while trying to save Mo Ruofei's mother.
Mo Ruofei, fighting his way through the melee, managed to rescue his mother and lead her to the secret room. In the secret room, Mo Ruofei’s mother was astonished to see Hua Buqi, mistaking her for a ghost. Mo Ruofei quickly reassured her that Hua Buqi was alive and he had found her. His mother then tearfully explained that a horse plague had struck Feiyun Fortress, preventing the delivery of warhorses, which forced her uncle to rebel.
She had sent an urgent message to Mo Ruofei, but the messenger couldn't find him. She then furiously blamed Hua Buqi for Mo Ruofei’s absence and for the Mo family's impending doom, reiterating that His Majesty had ordered the capture of the Zhu family daughter and drawing parallels to Xue Fei, Hua Buqi's mother, whom she believed caused her husband's death. Hua Buqi defended her mother, asserting that Mo Baixing was to blame, and her mother was also a victim.
Mo Ruofei’s mother continued to berate Hua Buqi, gloating that Hua Buqi must be happy to see the Mo family suffer. Hua Buqi retorted that she was indeed happy, as His Majesty was avenging her mother. As soldiers closed in, Mo Ruofei’s mother urged him to flee alone, not wanting him to be burdened.
She then attempted to take her own life, but Hua Buqi quickly intervened, explaining that while she resented Mo Ruofei's mother, she didn't want Mo Ruofei to suffer further heartbreak. Mo Ruofei's mother scornfully dismissed Hua Buqi's help, stating she would never forgive Hua Buqi or her mother. Just then, a volley of arrows pierced the secret chamber. Mo Ruofei’s mother bravely shielded him, taking an arrow herself.
As she lay dying, she told Mo Ruofei she could finally be with his father and implored him to escape so she could rest in peace. Hua Buqi and Jiansheng desperately tried to pull the grief-stricken Mo Ruofei away. Jiansheng, struck by an arrow, used his last breath to hold off the attacking soldiers, urging Hua Buqi to take Mo Ruofei and flee. Hua Buqi and Mo Ruofei managed to escape the Mo Manor, now both wanted fugitives.
Hua Buqi suggested a disguise: Mo Ruofei should wear women's clothes, and Hua Buqi would don men's attire, believing this would confuse their pursuers. Mo Ruofei hesitated, unaccustomed to women's clothing. Hua Buqi then revealed that she had known he was a woman since her first arrival in the capital, having observed details like his mother being the only one allowed near him when wounded and his surprising familiarity with cosmetics.
She reassured him that she had kept his secret and sympathized with the hardship he endured pretending to be a man since childhood, urging him to hurry as time was short. After changing, Mo Ruofei reflected on his life, explaining that his father had always wanted a boy, so his mother raised him as one.
After his father's death and his mother's mistreatment by relatives, he felt compelled to maintain his male identity to protect his family and navigate a society that discriminated against women. Hua Buqi praised him for single-handedly supporting the Mo family, noting that few men could achieve such a feat. Mo Ruofei expressed his gratitude for Hua Buqi's understanding, acknowledging that despite his mother's actions, Hua Buqi never sought to harm them.
Hua Buqi, in turn, affirmed her respect and love for him as her "Eldest Brother." Their disguise proved effective, allowing them to evade the searching soldiers. Mo Ruofei then proposed that he join his uncle's forces within Feiyun Fortress and asked Hua Buqi to accompany him to support Dongfang Shi, arguing that the Emperor also accused the Zhu family and that Old Master Zhu would soon be beheaded.
Hua Buqi reminded him of his mother's dying wish for him to live for himself. Mo Ruofei countered that with his entire family's fate on his shoulders, he could not live freely. He vowed to avenge his family, who had died tragically, emphasizing that he could not face his parents if he did not seek retribution. Hua Buqi, however, insisted on remaining in the capital.
She explained that Xiao Xia would soon arrive and, with her martial arts skills, could discreetly contact Yuan Chong at the Capital City Garrison Office to gather information about Chen Yu and her grandfather. They ultimately decided to part ways, wishing each other well. Mo Ruofei traveled to Feiyun Fortress. Upon arrival, he learned that the Fortress Master, Yun Qingyang, was raising horses on the northeastern plains, and Yun Lang was leading the Feiyun Cavalry in an attack on Hanzhou.
Just as he pondered going to Hanzhou, he spotted Dongfang Shi returning. Mo Ruofei approached Dongfang Shi and pledged his sincere loyalty, offering to kill the Emperor to avenge his family. Dongfang Shi was initially skeptical, bringing up Hua Buqi's poisoning at Mo Manor and questioning Mo Ruofei's ability to protect even a "little girl." Mo Ruofei pleaded, explaining that he had been unaware of the generational feud and that his mother was a pitiful woman.
He emphasized his deep affection for Hua Buqi, describing her as the little sister he doted on most. Dongfang Shi retorted that calling Hua Buqi "lucky" wouldn't sway him, given her suffering. Mo Ruofei reiterated his willingness to prove his loyalty on the battlefield. Convinced, Dongfang Shi accepted him and assigned him to General Liu.
In the military camp, Mo Ruofei's request for privacy to change clothes was met with dismissal by General Liu, who asserted that everyone there was a man and military orders waited for no one. Mo Ruofei, attempting to bribe General Liu for an exception, ended up clashing with the soldiers, accidentally revealing that he was a woman. Dongfang Shi was summoned, finding the situation "interesting."
Mo Ruofei explained her lifelong disguise for convenience and apologized for her outburst, citing the recent destruction of her home and the deaths of her family members. Dongfang Shi initially dismissed her, saying he didn't "make a fuss with a woman" and told her to leave.
But Mo Ruofei insisted on staying to avenge her mother, emphasizing her excellent martial arts and leadership skills, arguing that she could command without complaint despite being a woman, unlike options like being a bodyguard or doctor. Dongfang Shi, while acknowledging her capacity, expressed doubts about her character, especially as a woman leading men.
Dongfang Shi then offered Mo Ruofei a proposition: if she brought Hua Buqi to him, he would make her a Qianfuzhang (general leading a thousand soldiers) with her own private tent and ensure her secret was kept. Mo Ruofei asked why he wanted Hua Buqi. Dongfang Shi explained that the Emperor intended to capture and kill Hua Buqi, and his aim was to protect her, even revealing his intention to make her his consort.
Mo Ruofei, trusting his word, agreed to retrieve Hua Buqi, despite being a wanted fugitive herself. Meanwhile, Xiao Xia and Yuan Chong found Hua Buqi in the capital. Yuan Chong reported that while he had no news of Old Master Zhu, Chen Yu was imprisoned in the imperial palace, his martial arts crippled by the Emperor, and was now drowning his sorrows in medicinal wine.
Hua Buqi, believing the Emperor was using Chen Yu and her grandfather as bait, decided to surrender herself to save them. Xiao Xia and Yuan Chong vehemently objected, warning her it was a trap that would lead to her death. Hua Buqi explained that the Emperor’s one-month deadline for their execution was a ploy to force her appearance, and that if she showed up, they would not be killed.
Despite their concerns, Hua Buqi insisted, believing her appearance was the only way to save them, and she would find a way to escape with Chen Yu later, instructing Xiao Xia to remain outside for assistance. Just as Hua Buqi prepared to go to the palace, Mo Ruofei appeared. Hua Buqi asked why he was still in the capital. Mo Ruofei asked if she was certain she wouldn't be killed by the Emperor.
When Hua Buqi denied it, Mo Ruofei revealed that Dongfang Shi had told him otherwise. Apologizing, Mo Ruofei then brought Dongfang Shi's soldiers to capture Hua Buqi, explaining that he was doing it for her own good. Hua Buqi was brought to Dongfang Shi’s military camp. She immediately demanded to know the whereabouts of Xiao Xia and Yuan Chong, to which Dongfang Shi assured her they were safely imprisoned and would not be harmed without his order.
Hua Buqi accused him of wanting to sacrifice her for Biluotian's treasure, but Dongfang Shi denied it, claiming he could have taken her earlier if that was his intention. He assured her she was safe with him, as his grandfather, the Prince of Cheng, was the only one above him in the camp, and he was unaware of her presence. Hua Buqi pleaded for her release, stressing the urgency of saving Old Master Zhu, who faced execution within days.
Dongfang Shi dismissed her plan to beg the Emperor, stating that Old Master Zhu was in a heavily guarded prison and the Emperor would not believe her. He argued that the Emperor knew her true identity and sought to capture her to interrogate her about the map and holy item, ultimately to sacrifice her for the treasure.
He insisted that she would be much safer with him, away from the Emperor's grasp, and refused to let her risk her life, emphasizing the larger war between them. He then ordered guards to watch over her. Meanwhile, Yun Lang visited Mo Ruofei, who was now a Qianfuzhang, congratulating her on her swift promotion. Mo Ruofei inquired about Hanzhou's capture and then asked about Jiansheng and her mother.
She then revealed the full extent of the tragedy: the Mo Manor's property had been confiscated, and her mother, Mo Ruofei's father, Jiansheng, and most of the hundreds of Mo family members were dead. She blamed herself, believing her mother would have escaped if not for waiting for her. Yun Lang attributed the downfall to Feiyun Fortress being forced into rebellion.
Mo Ruofei, however, declared her immediate goal was to gain power from Dongfang Shi, doing whatever it took to become the commanding general of the entire army, so she could personally kill the Emperor and avenge her family.
