Since I Met U Episode 12 Recap
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Upon learning from Cheng Yu that Cheng Mu suffers from depression and panic disorder, and that he hesitated to confess to her for fear of being a burden, Jiang Sihan expresses her shock. Cheng Yu clarifies that she isn't sharing this for pity, but for Jiang Sihan to understand Cheng Mu's reasons and to consider if she can truly accept a partner with such conditions, urging her not to give up on him so soon.
Jiang Sihan asks for time to think. Seeing that Cheng Yu has said enough, Li Jingyang gently pulls her away to give Jiang Sihan space. Cheng Yu protests, insisting she must help her brother secure Jiang Sihan, as Cheng Mu has endured so much and finally found someone who makes him feel alive again. Li Jingyang reassures her, stating that Cheng Mu is an adult capable of making his own decisions, and that everything will ultimately work out.
Cheng Mu seeks guidance from his Master, asking for the meaning of a lived life. His Master prompts him to consider his own reasons for living, to which Cheng Mu replies that he doesn't want his sister to be sad. He elaborates that being with a particular person brings him a mix of happiness, jealousy, sadness, and profound clarity.
He admits his fear of confessing to her stems from the worry that she might accept him, believing that as a "half candle" – someone whose life might unexpectedly diminish due to illness – he would be unfair to her. The Master then shares his own poignant story: as a young, ambitious entrepreneur, he lost everything in a fraudulent business deal and fell critically ill.
He recounts leaving his fiancée a breakup letter and moving out overnight, never revealing his illness, because her parents deemed him useless and he believed she deserved a better life. He spent years in a hospital, and later learned his fiancée had married and had a child, which he initially saw as a good outcome. However, upon returning home, his parents presented him with a thick stack of letters from her.
Initially confused, then filled with pleas and grievances, her letters eventually expressed deep hatred for him. The Master explains that she knew about his illness but resented him for making choices on her behalf, for disregarding her feelings, and for selfishly taking away her right to love him, repeatedly asking, "Who do you think you are?" He emphasizes that such actions are not love, but self-pity and cowardice disguised as benevolence, demonstrating a profound disrespect for another's fundamental rights.
Cheng Mu, deeply moved by this revelation, declares that he must speak to Jiang Sihan and decides to create a new dessert he names "Confession." Meanwhile, Jiang Sihan meets her former crush, the Class President, at the beach. She reveals that a year prior, she had planned to confess her four-year crush to him with a love letter, but hesitated upon hearing he was going abroad.
Under the influence of alcohol, she attempted to confess anyway to put an end to her feelings, but mistakenly confessed to someone else. She admits she never anticipated that this person would become so vital to her. She tells the Class President that she can even discern Cheng Mu's emotions – his happiness, sadness, and complex yet simple nature – through the desserts he creates, finding it magical.
While acknowledging her past feelings for him, she states that it's time to move on and look forward. The Class President expresses his regret for missing out on her but wishes her a happier future. Jiang Sihan then affirms her resolute decision: she is certain she wants Cheng Mu in her future, and immediately returns home. Inspired by his Master's story, Cheng Mu realizes he cannot let fear prevent him from pursuing Jiang Sihan.
He immediately visits Dr. Lin, requesting another reduction in his medication dosage. He reports that his relapses have been infrequent and increasingly controllable over the past year, often managing to stabilize his condition independently. Dr. Lin agrees to a further reduction, suggesting that if his condition remains stable, they could consider stopping the medication entirely. He cautions Cheng Mu to control his emotions to avoid a severe relapse.
Cheng Mu then calls his sister, Cheng Yu, to announce his decision to live a normal life. He tells her that if Jiang Sihan believes he is worth it, he has no reason not to believe in himself. Cheng Yu is visibly emotional and deeply supportive of his courageous step. Upon Jiang Sihan's arrival home, Cheng Mu calls, and upon learning she has arrived, he rushes to meet her, feeling overwhelmed with joy at the sight of her.
He begins to explain his improved health condition and his discussions with Dr. Lin. However, Jiang Sihan interrupts him, revealing that Cheng Yu has already informed her of his situation. She then confesses her feelings for him, saying, "Cheng Mu, I like you." She clarifies that her fear isn't of his illness, but of his self-defeating assumption that she would abandon him.
She asks if he truly believes she would, and he firmly replies, "No." With their mutual feelings confirmed, Jiang Sihan invites him home. They share a tender moment, playfully discussing how close they should be. The experience is likened to biting into a soft mousse, plunging into a sweet trap of refreshing lychee and addictive peach flavors.
The narrative concludes by advising that if one encounters someone who brings such comfort and joy, akin to the pleasure of dessert, they should not hesitate or doubt, but bravely confess their love and embrace it. Cheng Mu later sends Jiang Sihan a message, expressing how much he misses her.
